Monday, 09 January 2012

  • 2012: A New Beginning

    What characterises a perfect holiday are the four F's - food, friends, family and fun. I got all of these and more over my holiday break. With the first week with family over from Malaysia, and the second going to the Whitsundays with the boy, I now feel incredibly rejuvenated, ready to take on 2012.

    Christmas and New Years were spent having jovial lunches and dinners with some of my extended family, a rarity which doesn't come around every year. Leading up to the New Year, also had a fantastic degustation with some of the most valuable friends I could ever ask for. Daydream Island was beautiful, we were there for 5 days which was the perfect time sitting around lazing around the ocean and doing fun, beach activities like kayaking, snorkelling, and a sunset cruise.

    When I look back at 2011, I realise I could fixate on the tolling times, but there were definitely a lot of highlights which set it apart from other years. The highlight was probably visiting Japan for 2 weeks, going to Supafest, some fun clubbing times mid-year, spending time with friends I actually wanted to spend time with, and getting rid of some of my hoard that I've accumulated over the years of bath & body addiction.

    2011 dished out some really difficult lessons for me, as someone who values personal relationships and wants to connect with everyone. I learnt that there is such a thing as "one-sided friendships" and to choose your friends wisely. These days, there isn't enough time to go around into putting all your effort into people who just don't appreciate and respect your time (or want to hog it all for themselves). Might as well spend your limited time with people who love and appreciate you for who you are. There's just no benefit in spending time on people who clearly don't reciprocate when the times get rough.

    My health wasn't at it's optimum either, as I discovered later in the year. Food allergies and back issues caused a lot of sickness and pain, which I am now working through, ready for the New Year.

    As I look to 2012, I am hopeful, optimistic, enthused and excited about the new challenges that it will bring. My New Year's resolution is to "Don't sweat the small stuff" which hopefully will make me a more balanced person. I look forward to a lot of things this year, and I hope to meet my goals that I've set for myself. Happy New Year everyone!

Sunday, 11 December 2011

  • Food for Thought

    In the past week I've cooked french toast, chicken schnitzel, veggie fried rice, sauteed chicken fillets, bread and butter pudding, chicken and leek soup with garlic bread - I've never been in the kitchen so much in my life.

    No, I'm not training to be the next Masterchef, I'm cooking my own food to reduce my food preservatives and additives on this super strict Elimination diet. It's not some weird thing that I decided to pick up myself, I've been instructed by a dietician to do it for a few weeks to cut out all the naturally occurring food chemicals that I could possibly be allergic to. I can't have anything from coffee, diary, all fruits except pears, all vegetables except for a handful of green things I've never heard of in my life, soy sauce, pepper, any meat that isn't prepared by a butcher, even down to the type of oil I use...the list goes on.

    Food intolerance is a rather uncomfortable (at best) and severe (at worst) phenomenon. It's so easy just to 'put up with the symptoms' and let your health slowly deteriorate, which is what I've done for a long time. Unfortunately, it got to the point where I would start stressing about eating in general because there was no knowing what could set me off. One night, it was a Max Brenner brownie sundae that created severe stomach cramping impending my ability to drive. Another day, it was a cheese board at work that gave me heart palpitations, hives, headaches and the shakes.

    Finally, I decided that this was enough and finally decided to get it sorted by going to a dietician. If someone was to tell me that I would not be able to eat what I wanted, going out to eat, and that I would be spending copious amounts of time in the kitchen, I would have laughed in their face. I'm the biggest foodie around so this diet has been extremely tough for me.

    The first few days were the worst, I was getting withdrawal symptoms from not having the usual foods that I have which resulted in extreme fatigue, constant hunger, and stress. I needed to go grocery shopping everyday to figure out what I wanted to eat, source out a butcher and ask them specifically when the meat was prepared, and prepare my own lunch everyday. And this is from someone who eats out 75% of the time.

    The hardest part is finding a happy medium when socialising with friends. If you're going to a restaurant, you need to make sure that you ask the right questions to avoid any bad symptoms or reactions to what you are eating. You won't be able to eat what everyone else is eating and it's a bit of risk as to what you end up getting. So far, it's worked out alright and I'm glad that it hasn't put me off socialising.

    After a few weeks of being on the strict elimination diet, I'll gradually begin to introduce different food chemicals in, one at a time. It will then become clear what I am exactly allergic to, whether it be several different additives or just one. The worst thing is, if I break it now, it will be difficult to tell later, and suddenly introducing something could send me into an allergic shock. It's basically treated like a scientific experiment, you reduce everything to baseline and then slowly test different chemicals and the reaction.

    With the Christmas period just around the corner, things would probably get more difficult. I'll have to bring in my own dishes to any parties and make sure I stick to what I can eat when out at parties. I've already lost some weight from the diet, eating much more healthier and learning to cook some new dishes in the process. The outcome could only be a good thing, and like everything else, you suffer in the short time for long term gains.

    Have a great Christmas everyone and I'll report back to how I'm feeling after this is all over.

Monday, 19 September 2011

  • Nature vs Nurture?

    Some recent things that have happened has caused me to question, why are some people the way they are? Is things that have happened in their life, or is it ingrained in their being to begin with?

    It's an age old debate that would probably never get settled. The truth is, it's a combination of both that forms a person, their demeanor, what they do, and how they treat others. While there is scientific proof on both theories, it's perhaps one of those things in life that were never meant to be explained.

    We are all so different, some of us that cause others to have their head scratching (and perhaps banging against the wall). If we all were the same, and we all got along, things would be boring, and we would never progress as a civilisation.

    Looking at others, wondering why you would never understand their views, and why they would never understand your own, seems to be pointless in that respect. You can only change yourself as a person, and you only know what has affected yourself in life to carry you forward.

    When you think about others, asking why they are the way they are, perhaps it's time to look at yourself, and see what has influenced you to be yourself. Perhaps it was some early childhood trauma, something that happened in the past, even something that you don't remember. Perhaps it is hereditary, passed on by your family. Or perhaps, that is just the way you are, and you can either accept or reject it.

    Nature or Nurture? We'll never really know. Perhaps we are asking the wrong questions.

Monday, 12 September 2011

  • Lost ~

    Man, I really miss my boy. He's only been gone for a short while, and shall be back shortly, but geez he really does comfort and ground me.

    This song describes how I feel:

    Soilwork - Epitome



    Also on the weekend, I camped it out at home where the Salvotorre brothers comforted me :D Vampire diaries that is!
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